I am currently just shy of 6 weeks along. And I don't know whether I am planning to keep this baby. (Sorry in advance to those ttc.)

Back story: I'm a single mom to an amazing 5 year old little girl. I work fulltime and I'm in college. I met and went out with a new guy for the first time in a long while. We did the deed and I was on BC, but we didn't use a condom, mind you I have PCOS that gives me issues getting and staying pregnant in the first place. We only did the deed twice, then a little over 2 weeks later I was having early symptoms - tender breasts, mood swings, fatigue, super smell. So I tested and it came back positive, but was super faint, and I've been known to have false positives. I didn't say anything and waited a few days before taking another test. This time it was certainly positive, so I called and made an appointment to have a blood test done and started taking prenatals. Now I decide I should probably say something to the guy I'd been talking to and seeing (no titles were given or asked for). After telling him, he went full panic mode and didn't believe me, so I did a test in front of him, that he bought. When that came back positive in front of him, he told me to abort it. (Or in his words "kill it".) After I explained to him that I'm not necessarily someone who supports abortion, depending on the circumstances, he told me that if I kept it, he might come around to the idea after birth and would try to support it and/or me. He still wanted me to choose abortion though. After a few days of back and forth, he continued with the "kill it" thing, and said that if I didn't abort it, he would pay child support and see it, but would have nothing to do with me. Then again, a few days later it changed to if you go through with this, I wont have anything to do with you or the kid. And that's where things have kind of stood since.

I want more babies, but I also want a family. My daughter's dad isn't around hardly for her, and I don't want to repeat that for this baby. I couldn't bring myself to do adoption, I would want to keep it at that point. (Finances are not a problem.) So I don't know what to do! My heart feels torn in two and I feel like a terrible person for even considering abortion right now. I don't usually go to people I don't know, but I need input. (Sorry for the lengthy read)