Just needing to vent... I’m 39 weeks tomorrow and today my husband is having knee surgery today.

I have felt like absolute shit for weeks and haven’t been able to get a proper nights sleep in ages. I’m a stay at home mom to our wonderful 2 year old. I feel like I can barely care for myself. On top of that I’m trying to give my son my all.. while maintaining our home. It just doesn’t feel like enough.

My poor husband has been trying to help, but he’s been in too much pain to do much of anything. I feel so bad for him, but also irrationally resentful. My emotional gas tank is on empty and I’m scared that the weeks following delivery are going to be even harder with my husbands recovery.

I’m sooooo done being pregnant, but also so scared to go into labor now. I’ve been having tons of painful menstrual like cramps for days, and last night was particularly bad. I’m worried I could go into labor any time now, which I had been hoping for before his knee gave out. Ugh. I just don’t know if I can do it.