Guys I’m so hurt and lost I’ve been with this guy since I was 17 I ignored signs of him being a control women beater it all stared when I was pregnant with my first he slammed me against the wall and chocked me out of anger outside I couldn’t talk to my friends be girl or guys he’d snatch my phone and throw it he has broken probably 4 phones already I cut ties with my dad because him and my dad didn’t like each other I wish I listened to my dad from the jump he would get mad at me for not having food ready before he came from work or house cleaned mind you we was never married he calls me nasty names talk about his ex’s and how beautiful and better they were put me down past all that i was being abused but I didn’t think much of it because I was madly in love he would talk to all these girl so called his friends and talk bad about me one time he said he’s only with me because of the kids, I’m only living with him because he feels bad for me or he waiting for me to get deported I’m not a citizen but a permanent resident he’d constantly talk trash about my family especially my dad and bad mouth him I didn’t care because he was more important then my family.A year after he ends up getting locked up 3 weeks after I gave birth to our 2nd son I was basically the only person there for him and his foster dad who does not like me because of the lies he told him about me I was going through so much visiting him making sure he had what he needed while locked up yes at that time my parents took me in despite everything a month before his release I rented a house that belonged to his foster dads brother how stupid of me so he got out of prison that same month he was talking to other women again talking bad about me how I’m a bad mother and I don’t do shit for him the SAME MONTH he got out. I got pregnant the same day he came home he would get mad and put his hands on me so I had enough and fought back I pulled out a knife to scare him away he called the police and lied said I was trying to kill him, myself and the kids he even said I tried to take pills to kill myself the cops ended up taking me to the hospital for mental evaluation I was also kicked out the house I couldn’t come back so I went back to my parents I didn’t see my kids for who know how long cps was called on me my parents helped me get my kids back mind you before I even went to the hospital I was homeless a week before because he kicked me out and I was scared to tell my parents I slept in the streets and shelters I begged him to let me back and he did the landlord also said I couldn’t come back into the house- the landlord is his foster dads brothers the lease had my name in it but it didn’t matter because they was close. But anyways I was living with my parents they helped me so much he had went to court to get full custody of the kids he thought he would because of cps and all that happened that night. The court allowed me to have the kids and him only getting them on the weekends KARMA with all the help of my parents God bless them I went to jail because of his lies also he claimed I went into his car and stolen his money and so on the case was closed. Anyways I got an apartment and got a new job making decent money I guess he was suffering with bills and was kinda jealous I felt bad I was paying his bills , insurance for time to time he started sleeping over I was close to giving birth to our 3rd son he wanted to move in together and be a family so he moved in this was In March of this year and now he’s talking to other women lying about me claiming he had full custody of our kids and I’m nowhere around he’s a single father of 3 boys so on I still love this man I’m so hurt I want to kick him out but I feel bad my parents moved to a different state every time my dad calls he’s always warning me about this guy but I never listen I want to move on but it’s hard when all I know his him please don’t judge me and give me your honesty sorry if I don’t make sense I’m not an English expert.