Abortion and TTC

I feel so much overwhelming for TTC just because I had an abortion in March cuz it was at the wrong time. I was bout to graduate and haven’t get a job yet...the situation was really hard for me that time. But not a single day after that I am happy. Until July I started TTC and I fail... I feel so much anxious.. emotional, I feel like god not forgiving me.. I feel something wrong in my body but doctors said I’m fine to get pregnant again. Anyone find it hard to be pregnant after abortion? I feel so much guilt. For now.. if I get to be pregnant again no matter what happen I wouldn’t give it up again. :(