Feeling guilty

I’m honestly feeling guilty now. I married my husband back in June, and I’m already 9 weeks pregnant. We sometimes send each other stupid letters about how we feel, I myself can’t really express much physically because of the trauma I went through as a child, and it’s hard to speak my mind. And right now he feels like he already has a child because of myself and how I am, because of how I don’t ask or care about his parents and that I focus more on my friends and don’t do anything to prepare for the baby. With how I have been feeling with the morning sickness, especially with the weather and it makes it worse because of how hot it has been. I’ve only been able to focus on how gross I’ve been feeling and unable to care and ask. Just reading his letter got me nervous and in sweats, I do feel awful with how he had been working at the restaurant with his parents, and that it’s become more for him to deal with when I’m not there. I feel like I shouldn’t have gotten pregnant in the first place. He said that I’m not ready to be a mom and that I’m more of a baby myself. I have dreamed of becoming a mother, but...how can I do anything? I’ve been looking up how to prepare, yes I’ve been using my phone as a distraction as well to just distract me from the nausea a bit because sometimes it’s too overbearing to deal with. And we both have cultural differences between us both, so it’s pretty hard to understand each other most of the time.