Sometimes I need to be able to fall apart

I am 30 weeks pregnant. My feet and hands are puffy. My back and mid-section have gotten bigger and my face has that "pregnancy glow" (puffy. My face is puffy.)

I struggle with being my biggest critic and being down right nasty and mean to myself verbally. It has been my goal to stop being that way because we want our daughter to grow up confident in herself. Plus I know my husband doesn't like it. I have to lead by example.

Going even a week without making nasty remarks about myself is an accomplishment. I've gone about 2 weeks. And tonight I just asked my husband "am I too big for you? I have been very insecure about my back fat today. I've been pushing and pushing and pushing it down. But I'm having a hard time shaking it." I break down in tears. And I mean the ugly cry. He hugs me and reassures me. I tell him "I've done better with not saying mean things. I really have! I just need to be able to fall apart sometimes about this." And he just says "I know." And holds me tighter. He kisses me and tells me he loves me.

We all need someone we can fall apart to. Someone who will hold us and catch us and reassure us. I sincerely hope that everyone reading this has someone like this. 💞