Honesty!

At times while I'm flicking through the status' on this, I feel like everyone planned their babies. My baby was definitely not planned and to be perfectly honest, it wasn't wanted at the start! I broke down and sobbed my heart out for two days! My partner and I were incredibly unhappy as this was not in our immediate plans! I considered abortion for 0.0002seconds, but even if I wanted to, it's illegal in Ireland! I also know I would never live with myself if I went through with it! I have days where I get super excited and I feel that I can do this, but I still have a looming fear that I can't and it gets me down and makes me feel like the worst in the world! I'm 24, I recently got a promotion in work and I intended on going travelling next year... Please tell me that I'm not the only one who didn't want this when they first found out? 🙈 I found out at 8 weeks and am 10 weeks today x