So this is my first pregnancy and my husband and I tried for a year after our loss to get pregnant before we finally did, I’m now 38 weeks and everyone keeps asking me if I’m nervous or scared and I’ve been denying it because I’m just not the type of person to let out my feelings but I need to just let it out and say... I Am SO SCARED. My husband works 4 hours away so I’m nervous that he won’t be here when I give birth (even though I know he’s been okay’d to come home when I go into labour) and I just feel like I can’t do it... I try to talk myself up but I just feel so cowardly because I wanted this baby girl so bad and I don’t even know if I can give her what she needs or if I’ll be the mother she deserves.. giving a child life and trying to be worthy of that child is just the scariest thing ever...