I just need to talk to get some things off my chest...yea i know im 13 and people question how young kids have depression or anxiety and it's because our live aren't the best no matyer how much we try to fit in or try to look popular... Im not that popular and i had a friend that is a popular but it took her over and i lost her and then the loml is also popular and no matter how much they love or like another my feelings never change for them no matter how much i try to change my mind about them... And then there's me a girl with a lot of friends but none that she can actually talk to and it hurts so much to kbow that im in this alone... And it hurts to think that im just a small meaningless nothing on this world and it's all i can ever think of along with thinking im too fat, too ugly, too stupid, too boring... And all these thoughts corrupt me and make me just wanna hurt myself knowing and thinking it's all true... And no matter how many times i try to talk about it with someonw they change the subject so abruptly...but i do have my psychiatrist and im soon gonna be on depression meds... But there's still a part of me that says they won't work and that they won't change how i act and that they won't work at all and that I'll still be a nobody in this world and that I'll have to just end this life and try at my next...and i just truly don't know how much longer i could even take the pain of it all...