34 weeks

So I’m 34 weeks and 3 days and I have been having this awful anxiety surrounding giving birth. This is my 3rd, so I’m not scared of labor, but I’ve convinced myself that I’m going to die during/after delivery. I don’t know if it’s because this pregnancy has been truly awful and complicated, or if I’m just scared to leave my kids behind without a mother, or if I’ve just read too many horror stories... idk. I’m honestly TERRIFIED. My anxiety about it just keeps getting worse as my due date approaches. I want this baby to come, I want my body back, but I’m scared that I won’t make it out. I hemorrhaged with my first, but was fine, and my second was perfect, so idk why I’m so convinced something is going to go wrong. What can I do to relax???