Feeling the loneliness of it
I just got a random, unprovoked wave of grief while I was taking a shower. All I could do is stand there. And that little voice in my head kept saying, "you should be over this by now. You've got a beautiful, 7 month old baby girl who wouldn't be here if either of the first 2 pregnancies stuck. Be happy. Just be happy." But sometimes I can't. I just can't. And it's such a lonely grief! I just feel this vast emptiness, this vortex of emptiness and loneliness when I get moments or waves of grief. I just needed to share with somebody who is going to get it. Love you mamas!