Anxiety through the roof

Tori • 26. Benjamin born 4/17/19. IVF warrior.

I cannot stop freaking out that my kid is going to die in his sleep. We did the bassinet and I didn’t sleep but 10 min intervals because I was scared. Cosleeping I get hour at a time but I’m still scared. We bought the owlet and I feel a little better but I’m still so scared all the time. I have a friend who’s kid is in the hospital from a brain bleed that started in her sleep. Now I’m sitting in the living room staring at the owlet app watching my sons heart rate. I’m so scared. How can I stop this? My sweet sleepy boy.