Postpartum or stress?

I stopped my meds because one I didn’t know if I needed them. The whole crying thing.. what mom of 3 under 3 doesn’t want to cry? I’m fine most days but sometimes my toddlers make me so mad I can feel the fire and my teeth grind.. I have to step away. Even though I wouldn’t hurt them I don’t want to spank them when I’m angry.

Routines help but there are little moments during the day where everyone is having a meltdown and I lose my patience for a minute.

The medicine they gave me was Zoloft and it made me sleepy. And I would forget to take it one day and when I took it again I would get a head ache. I used to smoke weed before babies..But I need something that isn’t against the law, that I can get a job with when I decide to go back to work, that insurance will cover if anything for anxiety.

My question is how do you know when you are just a stressed out normal momma vs postpartum? And is it postpartum or do you just have daddy issues? Momma passed away at 15 issues ? My husband left when I was preggers with my 3rd baby issues and now wants to get back? Like life happens and I feel like the doctors basically have you diagnosis yourself.. do you need medicine? Shit I don’t know that’s why I’m asking you. Is there anyone that can relate?