CRPS life

I have CRPS in my lower back down to my feet it is severe. I am having my 3rd spinal cord surgery in November. I have a 3 month old. I am just so exhausted from pain. I refuse to slow down because I want to be able to do so much as a family and as a mom. I am just crying the last few nights in pain. I cannot take medications while breast feeding so I am dealing with a bad flare.

We went to the state fair this week and I have been helping my husband landscape our home and take care of baby. I am trying so hard to be normal it is torturing me. I don't want my husband to know how bad it is because he will just feel guilty.

I just needed to vent. I want to be a normal mom. A normal wife. I want to be able to do normal family things.

I have come so far in 4 years from being wheelchair bound to walking and doing heavy yard work I just want more. I want normal. I am so angry at my body. My family deserves better.