How do you move on?

With this month being what it is I am finding it hard to carry on. I know a lot of people lose a baby though miscarriage. I can't stop thinking it was something I did. I am afraid to talk about it I was only 5 weeks when I lost my baby. I had only officially known for a few days though I had gotten my BFP a week and a half earlier. My husband doesn't seem to care I don't know where to turn. I know I have a lot to be thankful for this was my fifth baby only losing the one. I guess I need more to know that it is ok this is normal. I should be 24 weeks and happy. It doesn't help that this month is hard anyway. Anyone have ideas of how to cope with this? Thanks for just taking the time to read this