About 6 months ago my wife and I decided to start planning for kids! I was over the moon! It's all I've been able to think about since. We talk about it nearly everyday. I've had my future daughter's name picked out for years so I've been giddy over that, I've been reading up on what it's like in two mom households, figuring out our finances, learning how we should best go about conceiving since there's no man involved, and researching local sperm banks and a bunch of other "what to expect when you expect to be expecting" ish that I've been totally drowning myself in. I can't wait to be a mama.

And then today my wife tells me she isnt anywhere near ready. I'm so heart broken. I feel so silly for how much it hurts since we've only been planning for about 6 months. But it still sucks.

She's about to be 22 and I'm 24. I've always been a few steps ahead of her. I left my wild days waaaaay in the past. I don't do parties, clubs, bars. None of that. To be fair, she hasn't really gotten to experience that kind of social life. She feels like she'd be throwing away her 20's if we started planning for children. Which I get. Shes young. We both are. I can't really fault her for it. This isn't something we can begin to think about starting if we both aren't ready. And what am I going to do, force her to be ready? Of course not. But it sucks. It sucks to find out she actually isn't on board. Isn't excited. Isn't ready. I feel silly for even expecting her to be ready...but I am...she said she was too..but she's not...and now my heart hurts 😔

Don't need any advice or anything..just venting