Just found out I have CIN1. The callback was the worse day of my life. Went under the coloplosy and was told later by my doctor since it’s CIN1, we just wait and see. I guess I should be happy because I didn’t have to undergo another [emotional] procedure.

But, I’m crushed with emotions. I feel dirty. I feel ashamed like how could this happen to me?! I practice safe sex when had casual hookup, tested myself every year for STD/HIV. They say my body can heal itself with proper support from my immune system but how can I know how long I’ve had it when there isn’t a test for men? I’m terrified to tell my partner because what if they’re not understanding? What does that mean for future dating? What if I can’t get it back to normal/negative? Can’t help but cry.