Money more important than me and his baby? Plzz help!

I need some relationship advice. My boyfriend and I have a 7mth old baby, he got a new job over 4 months ago , its high up in a company. I dont have any income coming as i dont work so he pays all the bills and provides for both of us.  But we planned to have this baby, his last job consisted of him travelling away alot and this new job was meant to be local, stay at home job. But since then hes been away every week. Not back home for few days.  Then works at home one or 2 days a week. Away weekends doing his own thing.  Ive been begging and begging him to spend some time alone , as when he is home he spends time with the baby, which is 100% understandable he misses him ! But what about me ? Hes been neglecting me emotionally.  He thinks that buying me everything makes it better. He dosent have sex with me much, he never kisses me - until we have sex , he dosent even say anything nice to me anymore . He never asks if we could spend time alone , i infact wanted to surprise him to a hotel night for 2 of us without the baby. And he told me no, that he isnt leaving the baby with anyone. That hes only a baby and the baby is more important to him than i am. We booked a holiday together for a week and he said he will be away traveling alot after the holiday because hes gonna be away for 7 days away from work .  But isnt that what holidays are for ? If i knew that was gonna be like that id rather have no holiday at all tbh...  ive tried explaining to him that i need time with him and hes just ignoring me , dosent wanna talk about it. Infact he is saying " im controlling his life and work by asking him to be home more , that nobody this high up in a job who gets paid so well is ever home , so im LUCKY TO HAVE what i have as when he is home he does everything. But again i dont appriciate any of it. That he dosent need me asking hin every week to spend time alone , that he dosent wanna be away so much but he has to be so i just have to deal with it and shut up"  like i really have no idea what to do anymore. This isnt the life i signed up for ! I get that without his money we wouldnt be so fortunate enough to have what we have but seriously as much as this money is bringing him happiness , its making me depressed! I dont have any family , we live in the middle of nowhere , i dont drive , im trapped in one place !

He says to me if i dont like my life the way it is then i can leave as he isnt changing his job ( even though he told me, his family  and friends that if hes gonna continue to have to travel that much he would look for another job)  but now its all my fault.  I have to either deal with it or walk away. As much as i love him and need and want him, i dont want this life ! Full of money?  Being stuck in the house , nobody around me to talk to ? No family. Like i deserve better right ?  Or am i a total psycho like he calls me ?

Im scared to leave, i have nothing! , everything belongs to him, i cant afford to stay in this house if we did break up, i have no job , i cant drive , like i dont have anyone to turn to . And im seriously at my wits end here :(  someone please give me advice .