He stopped mid sex!

Ok so let me start from the beginning Me and my husband have been separated for about a month now because he admitted to having sex with another woman he claims it was a one time thing , he felt his needs weren’t being satisfied (asshole move, I’m tired we have a baby with special needs) but anyways he says he never spoke to her again and wants to work to get his family back, I still don’t know how I feel because it’s still early so he’s been at my mother in laws but I agreed to go to counseling.

Now here’s the story. Yesterday he came to pick our daughter, she was sleep and I had just got out the shower, and yes I’m still mad but I have needs so I go for it, he already tells me how much he missed it. he’s starts giving me the best head ever from the front , bent me over made me cum 3 more times then pulled it out and went to work for about a good 5 minutes and stopped.

I was confused, he just says “ I can’t do this , this isn’t right “ like I burst in tears and left the room. I can’t believe I did this I how feel stupid! He told me he he wants it but doesn’t deserve me and he needs to work for it. I’m not sure if it’s true but Now I’m questioning if I even know my own self worth .