I regret following the “rules”

I followed the “rules” with my first. I made him the most independent baby ever. He slept through the night by 2 months old. He could soothe himself so easily. He didn’t need me to hold him for comfort. People were so envious.

And I regret it.

I regret not taking time to snuggle him to sleep.

I regret not smelling his hair after every bath.

I regret not letting him rely on me to soothe more often.

I blinked and he became 10. Independent and running off to scooter around the neighborhood with “the boys.” Barely even a “bye mom!” while running out the door.

So baby girl... I could not care less if I have created a bad sleep habit.

You can fall asleep on my chest every night until you’re ready to do it on your own.

I will never regret the extra time we get to spend with each other while I smell your freshly washed hair, and feel the warmth of your skin.

I will never regret those few extra moments watching your blinks get a little bit heavier, and your breaths getting a little bit softer.

I will never regret this 💕