I feel like my boyfriend is not attracted to me that much anymore, I tell him this and he says he is and that he thinks I’m beautiful but I notice he will put his private tab on his phone when I’m not around which means he is probably watching porn or looking at stuff (I have caught him doing that before) when we do have sex it’s amazing as he is gifted down there lol but it’s always the same, i suck his dick and get on top and job done after 20 mins maybe more. I often find myself now dreaming of a man who would do all the stuff to me that he doesn’t do 😭 I feel so bad as I love him so much but I can’t help these thoughts!!!! He works very hard, 6 days a week and long hours, it’s always his excuse, but is happy to take a blowjob and for me to ride him. We have been a bit shit recently as I get really down when we haven’t had sex, so now it’s been 6 days since we last had sex. And tonight he had his private tab on...I cannot cope 😭😭