Thinking about getting back on birth control 😭😭😭

I'm so frustrated right now. I have endometriosis and sooo want a baby. My husband and I had a conversation about beginning the process of having a baby 3 months ago but he only fucks me maybe 2 times a month.... my doc said a pregnancy would help with the endometriosis pain so I got off the pill and thought we were beginning to ttc .... I'm so fuck pissed right now and in pain. Literally I looked at the calendar a minute ago and we fucked only 4 times in the last 3 months. Ugh😤😤😤 what the hell is wrong with me...😭😭😭 why doesn't he care about this... this pain is so much right now and I just want to give the fuck up and get back on the pill...