Rant after miscarriage

Finally got in to see my doctor this week after my miscarriage during Labor Day weekend 😞 she advised me to wait 3 months before TTC again ahhh this wait is going to make me go crazy. I hate thinking back to my pregnancy symptoms and to all the plans we had and just having to wait sucks even more I see so many girls pregnant and I’m not hating or anything but It does get me questioning like why couldn’t that be me or would my belly be showing at this point it’s just ahhh