Period finally shown after 4 days late....😭😫

I've been trying for 5 months now and I was late this month, got so excited although I tried hard not to. Took a few tests but were all negatives so I was trying to stay realistic but it's just so hard when you want something so bad. I've now got terrible cramps so I know its imminent and I'm gutted. Thought this was finally my month. It's such a cruel cycle. Back on the treadmill for another month. I think I was so naive about how hard this process would be