We have been welcoming pregnancy for almost 4 years now. We have been trying off and have had 3 losses. We took about a year off of actively ttc to get healthier and I got a new job. The last 6 months my period has been on time. This last month we decided to start trying again. I am two days late now with negative tests. I want to be excited, or happy but ive been let down so so many times. Even when I got positives i was let down durring the first trimester. My Partner doesnt want me to get sad if I get my period but damn is it hard. It feels like we have been trying so hard for so long. Seen doctors, done mountains of blood tests, researched for hours, watched hours and hours of educational videos, changed my diet, lost 50 lbs, moved states and worked My ass off to get a job that pays well enough and has good benefits so I can get pregnant without stress. I just want a break from the work and a start on the happiness...