Debating UPDATE

I hate my job. I’m a teacher. I have a masters in counseling and that is what I want to do but can’t seem to find a school counseling job in the area we live in... had offers in other states but oh well.

Anyway, I am back in school because in order to keep my teaching job, I have to take special education grad classes. I didn’t hate my job as much before the curriculum and form of instruction changed and now I feel like I’m drowning AND IM ON MATERNITY LEAVE! They hired a person without even a college degree to be my sub for 12 weeks. So there’s that.

We can afford me not working but I am the one who gets the health insurance benefits. I basically have 2 masters now which is just dumb because school is so so

Much money and to be paying for something I hate feels stupid.

My husband works 7 days a week 13 hour days because he runs his own shop and hasn’t found people he trusts yet. I do all the “home” things for our two girls and also, miraculously m, find time to go to grad school and help in my classroom. Idk what to do. Last year I cried EVERYDAY driving to work. I thought it was pregnancy hormones but now I’m not sure. This year I’m already having melt downs and panic attacks about going back. Ugh. I love working. But don’t want to be in that environment and miserable. I’m thinking of taking time to just focus on finding a counseling job but know what could be career suicide. Also thinking maybe just work the 7 months til June. Idk.

Just ranting and babbling as I’m procrastinating Typing a paper on my phone because I’m breastfeeding

Update: I have to answer in here and not comments because I want it to be anonymous Incase someone from my district sees... my certification is only good at schools. I would LOVE. To work in a woman’s shelter or youth services but is have to be back in school doing one more internship for clinical mental health counseling and maybe a class or two.