Considering Baby #5 among other feelings

I know the title alone may throw many off.

So I’ve been seriously considering another child in my future. How far or near is really the bigger question.

I want one in the next two, maybe 3 years. At most 5 years from now.

Mostly cause

I’m pursuing my goals right now while raising my four and doing my best to continue to provide.

So there’s still plenty that I would like to get in order first before saying let’s do it.

But I constantly think of getting a tubal litigation because Part of me thinks I’m not a good enough mother to raise another human. But my love for children and nurturing is pretty darn strong.

I’ve also been diagnosed with anxiety and ptsd, which allow for moments of irritability and irrational feelings with general sense of overwhelming stressor make me feel like a terrible mom.

I guess I needed to vent because I don’t want to bombard anyone with these trivial feelings.