I need a therapist

I feel so bad that my mental state is having an affect on my relationship. I feel bad that I have trust issues that I’m trying to control. I try not to get all paranoid and I try to shut every bad thought down. I really do try, and I feel so bad for my boyfriend.

To make things worst my mom said I will be a single mom even if he’s around helping with the baby. I have tried pushing that thought away. Just talking to her just brings back what she said and she won’t take it back.

I don’t have money to go to therapy. I really need one badly so I can keep a healthy mental state for my baby.