Just need a place to vent

38.4. Appointment today was maybe 2 minutes total including vag exam. Still only 1, cervix is High and thick. Baby still sitting high and kicking me in the rib. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy she is healthy, I just Feel like I am getting no where fast in this pregnancy. #FTMprobz

Husband has been in a butt head mood for days. He has been great this whole pregnancy but I am over the tude the last few days. I’m the pregnant one, I should be the one who has it. We Haven’t had sex in like 2 months bc he “can’t get over the mental block of me being this pregnant”. He may be sexually frustrated but damn it so am I.

After the appointment I went on a white girl counseling sesh with my (sad decaf) iced soy pumpkin spice latte and wandered the aisles of target. Cried over not knowing which Swiffer duster I wanted and whether I should “splurge” for the sink suction sponge holder. Im not an emotional person at all but I shamelessly cried all over that store today. Even made solid eye contact with some people. They all ran as fast as they could. Hormones have officially gotten the best of me.

Part of me wants to get this show on the road. Other part of me wants to just enjoy life as I know it before it all changes for ever. It’s a weird place to be.

Tell me I’m not alone.

In the mean time, me and my basically closed cervix will just keep bouncing on the exercise ball with my raspberry tea watching Netflix, instead of folding the mounds of m laundry I need to do, waiting on the next ridiculous thing to make me cry today. ✌🏼