Embarrassment of a mother

I came home from work I haven’t ate all day. I was in the kitchen making a sandwich and my mom told me I’m gonna be fat I’m so unhealthy cause I don’t eat her food & how I’m not gonna be able to fit in the door. Mind you everytime I talk abt losing weight all my friends are like girl what weight. I feel like I’m perfectly fine. I’m 19 btw.. my mom just kept tlking abt weight and I’m just like why do you care leave me alone. I can’t eat without you judging me or calling me fat. She always has something to say abt my weight. I told her why doesn’t she worry abt her own weight. Fast forward she got upset cause I wasn’t taking her shit and she told me shutup bitch you’re a whore you think because you have a bf you’re a women. You not shit you don’t pay bills here and then she told my stepfather “I can’t wait for this hoe to get out my house” I’m Raising two little boys and this bitch want to disrespect me in front my kids. I was like you’re so upset rn cause u cursing at me and I didn’t say not one curse word to you. And she said I see you getting fat that’s why I told ur hoe ass that. She told me there’s only one women in the house and I shouldn’t tlk back to her. My stepfather told me she has the right to tell me I’m fat like what the fuck. He’s fat too and nobody says nothing to him. Maybe cause he pays the bills ( my mom doesn’t work ). I have a part time job and I’m in college but I just want to get out of this house sooooo bad. I hate it here. My job doesnt pay enough for me to full be on my own. I feel so desperate i know I need to look for another source of income cus I can’t take this toxicity anymore. She’s always trying to put me down. She told me when I’m fat & insecure I’ll be complaining to her but I told her I don’t even talk to you you’re the last person I’d complain to. She told me I’m mad but yet she cursed me out. She’s so disgusting & embarrassing. She’s like a 16 yr old girl. She thinks she can talk to me how ever tf she wants because her man pays the bills. I didn’t even eat at all after having a long day I just threw my food away. She made me lose my appetite. I cried out of anger cause I wish my situation was better so I can get the fuck out of here and never talk to her again. All my life she has called me names and called me a whore. EVEN BEFORE I had a bf. Like wtf did I do to be a hoe? This is beyond me. I just feel so done. I don’t have a mom and it’s truly just overwhelming.