*Trigger warning* I miss him... 🙁🥺

I am a woman, I am a mother.

I’ve been married twice before? I’m on marriage #3. All before the age of 30.

I have a loving child from marriage #1. Marriage #1 was blissful, every woman’s fantasy.

It was also too good to be true, I’m glad it ended.

Marriage #2 is the one I wish I could forget. The pain, the torment and the lies. I recently decided to help out a friend. In response to helping that friend, every emotion that I had hidden has now been coming back.

Leo, his name was Leo.

Leo, mommy is so sorry. She tried her best but it wasn’t meant to be. Sometimes I wish you could come back to me. I’m sorry for trying to push you out of my mind. You deserved so much better my love. WE deserved so much better. I’m thinking about you more and more, the pain is unbearable. You were a light, my light. That was snuffed out from me. I have so many regrets, so many regrets and not noticing the signs is the biggest regret I could ever have. We were so excited for you, the plans we had for you, for your brother and future siblings.. but now all we have is a memory of the handsome sleeping baby you were. I want to trade places with you, I want you to be a reality, my reality. I haven’t forgiven myself, I haven’t forgiven the doctors or your father. I want to believe that I will see you once again but nothing could have prepared me for losing you. Leo come back to mommy, please..