4 am thoughts 💭 😓

I always said I wanted more than one child but tonight my LO has made me think otherwise.

He defies every “rule” out there it seems like none of these so called pieces of advice or tricks apply to him something will work for a few days and then not work from one day to the next.

I am obviously physically exhausted but more than anything I’m mentally and emotionally drained. I feel like I have nothing left to give to my husband or myself. My husband and I don’t have any intimacy in our relationship there’s times I want him but he doesn’t want me and vice versa. I get annoyed at him for everything even when he’s just trying to help and most of it stems from being upset that our baby is so difficult at times it’s like I feel like it’s our fault like we did something wrong. Everyday that passes I feel like our relationship becomes more distant. I get annoyed that so many of you here have completely resumed your sex lives and I haven’t even picked back up from where we were even before the pregnancy. I feel like there’s something wrong with me and him like we aren’t into each other anymore.

That’s why I think we’re not fit to have another child together bc this one completely changed us and not all for the better.