It's 11:50pm and I am officially breaking down because it's been a little over two months since I've visited my boyfriend. I miss him and I can't sleep and need cuddles.

We're both so clingy and it's hard on both of us when we can't hold each other. I still have some of his cologne he gave me last year and every now and then I spray it around my room amd on my bed so I can at least smell him, but it doesn't always help and just makes me miss him more sometimes.

Im moving there hopefully June 2020 but feels so far away and I feel like I just cant do this anymore sometimes, but I know I have to keep fighting for us and it's hard