Dealing with depression after miscarriage

My fiancé and I lost our first child after 16 weeks. After the miscarriage I had medical complications that made me bleed heavily for 4 months afterward. I became lethargic, anemic and very weak. After seeing 3 specialists and 2 regular obgyns, nobody has an answer as to why. This is my 3rd miscarriage. They found I have pcos but nothing else.

I’m 35 and all I can think about is having a baby and my time is running out. Nothing seems to heal that void I have. I keep my head held high but deep inside, I want to scream.

Any advice on how to relax a little and let time take its course? Even anything to try not to think about it as much and just enjoy the trying part? I’m trying to be positive yet sometimes it seems impossible. Praying for our rainbow 🌈.

So glad I found this app as it seems to be very helpful. So many amazing stories and strong women here. Makes me feel less alone.