What do I Do????

I am so distraught. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby since the beginning of the year. I have PCOS and have had trouble for a while. I had a leep back in July. My dr said she didn't take much then bc she knew we were trying but she thought she got it all. Last week I went to the dr. And had a follow up Pap smear. My dr said if it comes back normal she will put me on chlomid to help us get pregnant. Well I just got a call from my drs nurse and she said my Pap smear came back abnormal again with more high grade cells and I need to have another leep. I was so shocked I told her no that I didn't want that. She basically told me I didn't have a choice or I may get cancer and if I get pregnant they won't be able to do anything to help me until after the baby is born. I'm just afraid that if I have the second leep I won't be able to get pregnant for good! Is it worth risking cancer To keep trying??? I think it is! Has anyone ever gone through this?? I feel so alone!! 😣😢