To my brother in Heaven

Today we lost you.

We are confused and heartbroken. You have left the family with so much sorrow and guilt baby boy especially our mother and I know those where not your intentions but that’s what happens when you do what you did today. I’m not sure if you understood the consequences of suicide and I’m not sure if you actually meant to do it or just thought you were going to be ok...I have so many questions baby boy! Tell me why didn’t you let me know , why didn’t you let us know that your mind was wondering in the darkness you always seen fine and happy but looks are deceiving and we have Lear that the hard one today. Baby Brother in heaven I never told you that I loved you, I never showed you my love and appreciation and I just want to say I’m so sorry just because you were a boy I shouldn’t never have push you aside when it came to talking about your feelings and I’m sorry for that, since you were the only boy in the house always surrounded by 4 girls you probably tried super hard to always stay strong and not show you’re emotions! Oh baby Brother in heaven we love you to the moon in back and I hope that now you are at peace and that you have a smile on your face. Please take care of us from up there and make sure you take extra care of mommy because she needs that right know.

Today we sleep in a empty house because you were the one that filled it up with your love and big heart.

We love you unconditionally.

😞😞😞