Im going crazy

Ugh I just wanna vent I have no where to go

Lately I've been feeling so depressed my anxiety kills me at times. Like I can't take it I feel like I suffocate so bad. I can't be near my kids or anyone I feel like a whole failure I feel like giving up in life. I can't express myself to no one cus I'm afraid they will think I'm crazy or looking for attention. No one understands me or knows how or what I feel.