I hate that I'm writing on a thing like this rather than telling you in person but I couldn't and can't still. I wrote you that letter when you got to jail cause I couldn't stop dreaming of you. Oh so random dreams of you coming back to the arms you always belonged in. The one person who made me happiest besides my kids..it was you 😍 and how I miss you and I'm so sorry I couldn't realize than that you were all I ever wanted and needed to finally be happy. It was always you. I am sorry for all the pain I caused you. All the hurt. All the times I denied and rejected your love and affections towards me for someone else. For not seeing it was you. But thank you for our son. He is my one chance to see you all over again every day. But makes me miss u more and more. Thank u for the many years of friendship. Thank u for loving me when I didn't love me. Thank u for always being there until you weren't. I love you. Always and forever.