Well that sucked

Bf and I tried to have sex for the first time last night, and it was not how I expected. We only got the tip in because obviously I’m scared about the pain, and we didn’t buy lube. He said “The condom is lubricated, it’s fine.”Like no, I need to be more lubricated to help me relax! It was just a horrible experience overall. Ended up stopping it because it just wasn’t romantic, passionate, or fun anymore. Of course I felt like shit, and he keeps telling me we’ll get there soon. Doesn’t help the fact that I have a VERY SMALL cold and he opposed to even having sex at first because he doesn’t want to get sick. Except the fact he’s been kissing on me every since I first got sick 4 days ago. Like, the damage is already done, what are you trying to avoid???? This sucks lol. I’m gonna give it a week and maybe next time it’ll go better once we buy some lube 🙄