Let me start this out by saying I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH PORN OR MASTURBATION. He can watch porn as much as he want as long as he isnt only watching porn. Two days ago we were both so tired that we decided not to have sex till the next day when I had off work and would be home all day. Yesterday on my day off I tried to have sex with him and turn him on through text but he stayed out all night so i was already asleep when he got home. Then today i look at his google history and he was watching porn earlier today, so I figured that meant he was in the mood and id have no problem getting him to spend some time with me but when I tried I got turned away AGAIN.

It has happened multiple times in the past. I only look at his google history to see the dates so i know that he aint watching porn on the same dates that he pushes me away. He knows i get on his phone and he gets on mine too. That's not a problem for us. We have a very open relationship.

We've had the porn talk and we were okay with it but im not okay with getting pushed away while he's masturbating every day. I feel insecure and dumb and i dont like feeling like that over something as stupid as porn.