Prayers to God

When it comes to myself, I’m pretty spiritual and feel one with the powers above. Just like many others in this group, I’ve been praying for pregnancy and this past week my life was turned upside down for a bit.

One Tuesday I was admitted to the hospital for having excessive fluids in the brain. It’s pretty common. They just have to drain the fluids out my brain doing a lumbar puncture aka a spinal tap. They did some radiology on me and then attempted the lumbar puncture twice. The lidocaine wasn’t strong enough I felt it all and couldn’t stop crying my poor husband looked miserable holding my hand while I lost it.

I was soooo mad at God because how could he do that to me? I just wanted to get pregnant but instead here I am suffering, I remembered this older religious woman a few weeks back had told me that sometimes you gotta go through the bad to get to the good and that god was planning something great for me. I thought about it, they put me through a lot of radiology that even if I WAS pregnant I probably would have ended up in a miscarriage.

Long story short, I think this was God just making sure my body was good for the little blessing he’s about to give me ❤️