Due in 2 days and this is what I find...

I’m going to be induced Sunday night. What the fuck do I even do.

Update : The night I posted this I tried to leave and he literally was on his knees begging me to stay. He took all my hospital bags and locked them in the guest bedroom (I had to literally break in the room to get them). I broke up with him clearly, not just because he cheated (we never broke up when he hooked up with that girl and I never knew he even did)... but because he had the nerve to say this about me a month ago. I take care of him, I forgave him, I put it past me... but for him to disrespect me like that? Embarrassing. His excuse was that we were going through a rough patch. I have to stay here however, as all my things and the baby’s things are here. I’m going to get induced in three hours, and I’m not sure what to do. Yesterday morning after all of this bullshit, my grandmother passed away so I’ve been struggling with not only him, but with grief. I told him I was going to find someone else and he threatened to kill anyone I ever got with that wasn’t him, lmao. I’m nervous to give birth, I’m grieving and I’m hurt. For people saying I planned to get pregnant, or was trying to “trap him”, it takes two to get pregnant and it happened spontaneously. I wasn’t trying to save anything, in fact if I knew he cheated before we found out I was pregnant... I woulda kicked his ass to the curb. I need advice and prayers.

Update 2: So it’s been a month. I have been a little busy with my baby, but my birth went fantastic. Less than 12 hours, my water broke on its own when I went to be induced... pushed 12 minutes, no tearing and then I welcomed my 6pound 12ounce baby boy, Caden. I ended up allowing the baby’s father in the room, out of kindness, and partly because I had no emotions for him anymore. I know that sounds crazy, but to me he went from my love to just my child’s father. Anyway, we have still been living with him because when everything went down, it all happened so fast I didn’t have time to move and have that stress on my shoulders as well. Now don’t get me wrong ladies, I know THIS MAN IS NOT THE ONE FOR ME. After that disrespect, and the fact that girl knew about our relationship and had the balls to try to get him to leave me... she can have his dumb ass. He ain’t even that cute. It’s been hard being here on my heart, I’ve been struggling with PPD and I can’t stop beating myself up for his actions. I hate myself and I hate him even more. We argue, and I bring things up despite him trying to make things better. Now, he has been very sweet to me trying to win me back but I’m tired and I’m fed up. (He is at work most of the day so I don’t really see him) I don’t know what to do for myself or what steps to take next in my own life. Is there hope? Can he change? What does this mean for me? Needless to say, I’m lost and still broken-hearted.