Feeling lonely

I know I’m going to get criticised for being needy and selfish.

But the week that just past I had a tough week. I just felt down and unmotivated. My boyfriend was on holidays with his family and I just felt lonely. I was struggling to find any purpose to what I was doing, I just woke up went to college, or did homework or actually worked. It was just the same thing every day. My boyfriend knew I was feeling this way and he kept saying when he came back he will make me happy and we’ll see each other.

Anyway he comes back today and I was hoping we could see each other tomorrow because he has a week off college. But he kept saying he has so much work to do and I said to him I don’t want to get in the way of doing his work so whenever he has some free time we can see each other and that I’ll just be doing my own work like I’ve been doing because I have nothing else to do. And he just said we can call during the week. I just felt so down when he said that. I know it’s petty but I feel like he’s not excited or having the need to see me and even knowing that I had a shitty week last week it’s like it’s not even a thing that happened.

I don’t know I just feel down now.