My husband is in the army and so far, being a military wife isn’t something i truly like being, but i love being his wife. I do everything because i love him. But deep down, I really miss home, being away from home has made me feel really depressed, i tried making friends yet i still have none. And its hard to control my feelings because i really want to feel happy here but i just cant... its hard coping with this change in my life. Its like no matter how hard i try to love being here i just cant bring myself up to that place in mind. My husband knows and understands how i feel. My husband keeps me sane and he makes me really happy. So being here is worth it because i really love him. He started talking about leaving the service after his contract is up, and i support his decision.. Infact, i 100% support it because of how much i miss home.

But then he brings up that he decided to join the air force instead because its a guaranteed paycheck. And the first thing i tell him is that i support his decision. I want him to do what makes him happy. But i also had to be honest with him on how i feel and i told him that i just want to be home. And i even told him that im not sure about moving again to another state and dealing with this feeling for a few more years. Im not sure how ill even feel being gone for a few years all over again.. He probably feels like im making him feel bad for feeling this way, but i really didnt try to. But i couldnt lie to him either. Im not sure what to do, i want to make our marriage work but i cant sacrifice my feelings again. We might just drift apart if he does end up leaving. I’m not sure whether to follow him or not. I’m scared and really confused. I dont know how you military wives do it but ya’ll are really strong women. I wish i can be just as strong.