Going to explode 🤯🤯😭

Am I selfish for wanting a break from my kids ? I’m a stay at home mom I’m two months post partum , I cook clean wash clothes n I do online school 24/7 never do I get a break don’t get me wrong I love my babies with all my heart . But being stuck at home is really getting to me sometimes I zone out n feel nothing sometimes I just wanna sit in my room alone , I wake up every morning with the mentality ‘ here we go again’ I don’t feel pretty any more like I used to I feel like all my energy has been sucked out its honestly sad .. I don’t talk to anyone do to the fact I don’t want them to think I can’t handle it my mom always asks if I’m okay of course I tell her yes . I don’t know if I have postpartum depression or what it’s already been two months ... in a way I feel like I just need to suck it up but it’s getting harder to do so ...