Going to explode 🤯🤯😭

Angelica • Working On ME 💪 ✨ Oscar Alexander 👦🏻 Yliana Daleyza 🎀 Adrian Rèy 💙🌈

Am I selfish for wanting a break from my kids ? I’m a stay at home mom I’m two months post partum , I cook clean wash clothes n I do online school 24/7 never do I get a break don’t get me wrong I love my babies with all my heart . But being stuck at home is really getting to me sometimes I zone out n feel nothing sometimes I just wanna sit in my room alone , I wake up every morning with the mentality ‘ here we go again’ I don’t feel pretty any more like I used to I feel like all my energy has been sucked out its honestly sad .. I don’t talk to anyone do to the fact I don’t want them to think I can’t handle it my mom always asks if I’m okay of course I tell her yes . I don’t know if I have postpartum depression or what it’s already been two months ... in a way I feel like I just need to suck it up but it’s getting harder to do so ...

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Da

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Not only is it not selfish, I feel like it makes you an extra good mom to have that kind of awareness of where you are and your needs. You need a break and that’s totally normal and ok.

An

Angelica • Sep 30, 2019
I just want them to be proud of their mama I want them to know I’m doing everything possible for them putting their wants and needs before mine , I started to go back to school for them so they’ll have a better future but it’s become hard , I don’t wanna disappoint them .. I would do anything for my baby’s I just want a break but I’m afraid to say it I don’t want anyone thinking I’m a horrible mom 😭

M

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Not selfish. Nobody is made to work 24/7. You deserve a break just like any working person. I felt the same way so much when I was very early postpartum and I can’t figure out if I don’t feel that way as much anymore because I am getting little breaks or because I’m used to the struggle 🤷🏻‍♀️

An

Angelica • Sep 30, 2019
The struggles real for both 🙄, the little break I have is on the toilet 😫 smh ...

Me

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Exactly how i felt after my second was born. I think it's related to PPD and just being human. I wasnt very happy for at least 6 months. I didn't realize it could have been ppd until i started feeling better. Being a mom is hard, and having a new born is extremely hard. Find someone you can talk to honestly. Saying it outloud to someone who will listen might be all you need. Admitting to yourself that your emotionally unwell is step #1. My mom would always ask me if I needed help. My response was always "i don't NEED help, but it would be nice to have some". It's ok to want a break, it's ok to take some time away for yourself, it's ok to ask for help.

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Angelica • Oct 8, 2019
It was hard to open up and bless his heart he try’s lol yesterday he put the diaper on backwards 😂🤦🏻‍♀️ n I try but I’m constantly getting up to see what their doing or is he doing a good job lol , ugh but I need to put myself first at least for once

Me

Merium • Oct 8, 2019
Im glad you talked to your husband and mom and it sounds like they support you, that's so important. Let your husband take care if the kids for a few hours each week so you can do something for you. Even if it's just to get a cup of coffee and sit in peace for an hour.

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Angelica • Oct 8, 2019
I finally exploded this past weekend to my husband out of no were he was shocked he told me I need to tell him things like this I broke down completely he also told my mom we had a long talk, I have a problem holding in my emotions my dad never taught me how to vent growing up sadly , but I’m slowly learning I have my good days n I have my bad days it’s hard some days I just wanna black out but I try not to .. I know now that I have to seek help I was just to afraid to admit it I didn’t wanna come of as a bad mom that’s unstable 😭😭😭