College boyfriend

So I date this guy from back home but I’m in college . We do long distance. I’m going to be honest I’ve cheated on him. He knows about it but he acts out irrationally even though he says all is well and forgiven. He says he hates that I have “two lives” and hates my life in college. Hates frats, hates the people here, hates everything about it. Not sure what to do. It’s one of those things where I love him a lot. And I know he’s an amazing human. But I’m also young and 21 and not sure if I’m perfectly equipped at the moment to be completely dedicated and committed to someone at this point in my life. What do you do when you love the person but the timing is wrong ? :(

Advice please.