I’m just venting, I guess.

I’m 20 and I’ve been in two committed relationships and have dating a few people. The first relationship that I had, the guy cheated by snapping other girls and telling them he wanted to have sex, he didn’t follow through (that i know of). The second relationship ended bc of his cheating. He had sex with two other people that I know of. Dated two other guys pretty seriously, for both relationships there were agreements that we were only talking to each other. Found out the first guy was trying to decide whether he wanted to be with me and another girl. Lmao. And this last guy, we were talking, said he wasn’t ready for a relationship, we stopped talking and I just found out from that he talked/had sex with someone else after we stopped contact.

It’s just kind of hurtful because I feel that nobody ever wants me. and I always put my best food forward and try to be the person that other people deserve and nobody reciprocates 😔 the last guy hurt me in a different way bc I really liked him and he told me he wasn’t ready.

It’s like nobody ever picks my side. I don’t want to sound whiny or needy but seriously. It’s like a pattern and I can’t figure out how to stop it