I don't know how to deal with baby showers.

I am going crazy. Alex (my fiance) just told me he switched his schedule at work so we can go to his best friends and his cousins baby shower without even asking how I feel. Idk if I can make it through one let alone two. It's so hard. Idk how to face one. I skipped so many lately because it's too hard and now ugh. Just thinking about a baby shower makes me want to scream and cry. I can't take the just stop trying and it'll happens or all the you'll get your baby when it's your time. I just cant hear how people are sorry for me having miscarriages and how they can't imagine the feeling or they think they know of I feel. It's so hard ugh and he won't even listen.