I have been bulemic in high school, never lost that much weight but i got into the habit of binge eating and then purging everything.

And I got better stopped puking but I still have a lot of trouble of making myself eat regularly and not starve and then binge eat. My first year on college I just ended up starving myself, lost a lot of weight. But then I had an injury which meant i couldn’t even walk properly. So I got really depressed and started eating loads again. And I gained like 10kg.

Now I’m second year in college. And I’m trying not to starve or binge and still loose weight. But some days I feel so nauseous just thinking about eating breakfast and i’m scared i’ll vomit if i eat in the morning (that has happened) so i skip breakfast.

Then i usually have an appointment/work/school over lunch till like 3/4pm. And then i hate eating in public so till i get home at like 5/6pm i am so hungry i binge eat ungodly amounts of food.

I’m trying to break the cycle. But i just ended up starving myself. It worked for a bit and I lost 5kg. But now i’m binge eating again and i gained it all back.

I weigh 102kg, which is obese based on my bmi. And i need help, i dont know how to loose weight without falling into eating-disorder like patterns.